“you know you’re fucked when those late night thoughts start hitting you in the middle of the day”
“My problem was that no one ever needed me as much as I needed them.”
“Believe them when they say that it’s over. That there isn’t anything else worth fighting for. Don’t look more reasons to stay, or for any loopholes that they might have missed themselves. Just leave. Don’t keep holding onto something that has already hit the floor. You’ll be trying to put those pieces together for the rest of your life. Just leave. Don’t argue with them or tell them how much you love them or how much you still want this. Just leave. Your energy is better spent elsewhere. Better spent healing yourself and fighting for someone who will never put their fists down just because their heart has given up. Just leave. You are not a struggle. You are not someone who needs to be saved. Just leave. The longer you fight the more tired you are going to be in the end. Just leave. You shouldn’t have to convince anyone to love you, to stay, to see that you are worth it. Just leave. You are not broken. You are not the one who has given up. You are the one who remained strong even when your heart was collapsing beneath your own bones. Just leave. You can say that it will be better, that you will be better, but you both know that what’s best for the both of you is to just leave. You’ve been in this constant battle of trying to love yourself and loving someone who only knows how to leave before anything is resolved. So just leave. Because even if you still want this, still want them, you have always deserved someone who will fight beside you even when their strength is running on low.”
Having the urge to talk to someone that doesn’t care about you anymore,
It’s difficult. Talking to them won’t be the same as it used to be. You just want to talk to them every now and then or help them out. You can see the way they feel just by looking at them. You have that little urge to talk to them but you can’t because you know they don’t need you anymore.
“You made me hate myself alot”
“…I was calm on the outside but thinking all the time.”
— A Clockwork Orange,
Dir. Stanley Kubrick (via wordsnquotes
im just an asshole with feelings
“It’s so difficult to describe depression to someone who’s never been there, because it’s not sadness. I know sadness. Sadness is to cry and to feel. But it’s that cold absence of feeling— that really hollowed-out feeling.”
“Worst feeling in the world is knowing you did the best you could, and it still wasn’t good enough.”
I’m hurt, but I won’t do anything about it.